This is 40

April 2018 - San Antonio, Texas

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I could tell she was nervous the moment I walked in. She booked an in-home boudoir session and although we've met before, I get it, minimal clothing with a camera in front of you.. it's kinda scary. She's also a multi-faceted creative, and I met her the previous summer at a photography workshop. Placing a fellow photographer beyond the camera always excites me. It's important to see things from the other side, (I don't do this often enough).

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I walked around her beautiful home while I waited for her to finish getting ready. The light poured in like a dream. Beyonce played in the background and I noticed a small room set up like a studio, with multiple large scale paintings of women's bodies. I was enchanted. She told me she painted them, and in that moment I felt this was right and I grew even more excited for her. She wanted this, she wanted to feel liberated. She's been channeling these feelings through other art forms. Oh but my darling, YOU are ART.

As the session went on I could feel her opening up more and more, and by the end she was wearing nothing but a huge smile across her face and I couldn't help but feel the same. I left her home, glowing. She killed it and I was reminded once again, how much I love what I do. I get to witness a transformation of people's spirit in a mere hour or two. It's pure magic.

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She is a wife, a mother, an army veteran, a marathon runner...

She's a badass.

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I asked her if I could blog her session and if she would share a bit of her story with me. Here's what she said.... 

I’ve been picking myself apart for most of my life... I had a horrible self esteem as a teenager and in my 20s. My body image has been a constant battle. In my 30s I have come a long way but I still have a hard time walking around in a swimsuit in fear of cellulite on my thighs showing or my stomach looking bloated. It really sucks the life out of a person.

And in a few months I’ll be 40 and I’m too old to waste my life hating on myself... My body has done a lot and I should be proud of these legs that have carried me through 13 marathons and my not so tight abs that held 2 babies. I should love myself in spite of these imperfections.

I wanted to cancel this shoot... I am not in my best shape, I’ve been injured for 7 months and my legs and abs were squishy and not where I wanted them to be. I just gave myself a pep talk... I needed to accept myself, even with a little less muscle. 

I wanted to work with you because I was inspired and impressed by your work. You have a great way of capturing females- their personality, their emotions. Your portraits are strong, fierce and stunning. I learned a lot from the session on how you directed me. This is one of the hardest things to do as a photographer and you directed me like a pro.

I am so happy with the photos. They are artistic and emotional and I’m so proud of myself for going through with it. This was a huge milestone in my life and you captured it beautifully! Thank you for helping me and inspiring me to step out of my comfort zone.
— B
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What a beautiful, strong woman, both inside and out. I am so honored she chose me to capture this chapter in her life. I feel so inspired. Ladies, we don't give ourselves enough credit. Remember how powerful you are.

xo, LP

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